December 2011
154 posts
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tl;dr - I love you.
My text message history goes from arranging a meeting to the beautiful aftermath, a collapse of every barrier we didn’t know we’d built up between ourselves all those years.
Two years and still learning more and more each day. The last week has seen more change in me than the last two months. I feel like I’ve been stuck in a rut for years and it took a huge shock to pull me out...
November 2011
128 posts
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Go ahead. Hit me like a thousand brick walls.
shit.
college life is passing me by.
there's no good reason to be this exhausted
mentally drained. inescapably my fault.
STOP THINKING. FEEL. DAMMIT.
Of course it’s pouring.
Gonna be a long one.
Oh wait the day’s half-gone. What have I accomplished? What do I want to accomplish? Does it matter?
Guess I’ll go fix computers, then go to work and fix computers.
tumblr hates my gifs and won’t upload them properly. :(
lon__y
I promised myself I would say it anymore.
I’ll blame it on having no car anymore and missing a select few people, some too soon; I’m exhausted and taking photos calms me down but I just keep yawning.
I did nothing but drive places and buy stuff and it was awesome. The places I went, though…oh, the places I’ve been…
Would you go there with me?
Phew it’s been a long day.
What is this? College Jimmy is not stressed. He’s calm, cool, and collected, because he’s got this.
About to drive back to college. I have 3 more computers and all I’ve eaten today is pie.
Life is good?
I guess so, because (in order of occurrence)
• I’m on better-than-good terms with someone I previously thought wanted me out of his life
• I make my old classmates double-take at my appearance
• I’m apparently a great dancer
• I can just leave the house whenever I want
• I saved a shit ton of money on computer parts for my custom machine
• I spent more of my own money than my...
Is this real life?
More like reeling from life.
Anonymous asked: I saw you at the club Wednesday night...you were really laying down the moves. As in you're a fantastic dancer. You move so well and it's like you know every song they play there!!
aaand now I remember why I hate this "holiday"
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I am so very glad today happened.
Who the hell have I been the past two months?
This ought to be an interesting conversation.
I suppose that’s a word for it.
You be the liar, I'll be the lie.
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EVERYTHING I HAVE IS BROKEN
Like seriously I can’t even go through the list. I think the only thing in my room at home that is the way it should be is my bed. No wait, there’s no blanket. Goddammit.
Seriously. The more computers I have, the more of ‘em break. hadgldshfgksjhkajfhakergjhfg
feels like I was driving home through a...
outta here in about an hour. yay?
it’s a rainy, dreary day. wouldn’t you like me to brighten it for you? <3
Even through all this…can’t concentrate, can’t focus, can’t stop realizing the loneliness.
Could also be because it’s 0125 and I’ve been playing RuneScape for hours on end.
How do I get around sounding desperate? I long for something more. There’s no book on it. Thanks, Nik. Great chatting with ya…til you vanished from the face of the...
I'm done.
No work, no classes, no nothing. Nothing outstanding I need to do, write, put together, turn in, anything. It’s a marvelous feeling.
Gonna grill myself a cheese. Or three. Who knows. Then dip my pretzels in this French Onion impulse buy sauce.
Later gonna do my laundry and clean up my room a bit. That’s it. That’s all that’s on my agenda.
I leave early tomorrow morning....
If I confuse you, it’s because I don’t know where I stand.
If I say too much, it’s because I feel too much.
If I make things complicated, it’s because I want them to work.
I’m far from perfect but I try to be the person others want me to be. That’s me. Being myself means being what you want. I can’t please everyone but I want to be the friend with whom...
If I run you in circles, remember I’m going in spirals.
If I overwhelm you, remember I’ve already forgotten what was bothering me.
If I’m too much for you, remember I’ve never understood myself.
If I don’t shut up, remember it’s because I see something in our conversations.
I'm going to stop.
It’s not worth it.
I shouldn’t apologize, I should say thanks.
Today I’ve realized. It took a long time.
Maybe people care. I know of a few. It’s very meaningful. :)
I don’t like me. So I’m going to change me. It’s up to me anyway.
Maybe I’ll start posting silly anime screencaps again. :P
At any rate, college Jimmy is going through a lot and...
withdrawal is a bitch and a half
CHANGE
it’s needed.
can’t help feeling like i’m missing something besides my appetite.
“I said baby don’t worry
Life will carry
Just take it slowly
Cos the love...”
– Poets of the Fall - Fragile
burning emptiness
I either woke up feeling awful or I just never really slept. I don’t know. Probably I did sleep, but not for very long seeing as it’s just past 0700h.
Looking through what I wrote last night. Still true. Painfully and pathetically poetic, too.
Rest of the weekend = we’ll see. Could be nothing, could be something. I’m not optimistic.
worst night in years
i get what i refuse and more
I really really want tonight to be fun and fulfilling. It comes down to something I can’t even think about without banging my head against the wall.
I refuse disappointment. Can’t dance with the devil on your back. Want.
Please?
